A sad goodbye :(

Yesterday David and I had to say goodbye to our dear kitty Tercel. David's family had adopted her as a stray five plus years ago so she never went to the vet. Once David moved out into his house he took her with him. She was indoor and outdoor. Many of his roomates loves her! She was David's baby... and woman before me :) She slept on his bed and he would always love on her, brush her, and pet her. I on the other hand was allergic so I couldn't pet her as much :(

Over the past month we have been noticing that she stopped eating a lot and was losing a lot of weight. I took her to the vet yesterday to find out if we should switch her to wet food hoping she would eat more... little did we know how sick she was.

According to the vet she had a feline lukema desiese. One of her lungs was 4 times the size of the other and there was so much thick fluid in her abdomen and chest cavity that they couldn't even find the tumor or her heart. She has weeks of poop stored up in her because she just didn't have the energy to go to the bathroom. And she was using everything she had in her just to breathe. The vet was very kind but told me that she pretty much was on her last week and was litterally drowining in her own fludis :( They encouraged me to end her suffereing. I immeditately called David. Here we thought it was a diet preference but turns out that she has been dying. My poor husband... was speechless. THere he was at work, not able to get off, not able to come say goodbye to his beloved kitty and I had to make the choice. Of course we didn't want her to suffer anymore. I left the vet in tears sobbing in the car the whole way home. Seeing my husband so hurt and in so much pain killed me. I wished there was something I could have done. I saw the most tender side of him... and hugging him as he cried made me see him in a whole new way.

I know some of you are not pet people, so it seems weird to be so sad over a cat... but I think It is amazing just how close you can be to a pet. You realize just how much of your daily routine included that little kitty.