As I am writing this I am listening to my sweet girl try and negotiate not taking a nap... judging by the whimpering cry I will not be discussing this one with her ;)
I decided today that we needed some time outside! I will tell you all about our fun day in the backyard in am minute. Right now I have to share my heart with my loving readers!! Last night was a tough night for me... my heart was so sad and I was being silly and worrying too much about the future. My thoughtful husband was so sweet and comforted me with encouraging words but as a mother is it just so hard to accept certain things! David and I both want another baby, but it feels different for me. I LONG to be pregnant again. I can't wait for the Lord to knit a precious life together again inside me! I am so thankful for the friends and family that have been there to support me through this time in my life, and if I didn't have the strength from God I don't know how I could do it! We are so blessed! Gracelyn just lights up our life everyday even the sassy days ;) We know the Lord has the perfect plan in store for our family and I can't wait to watch it unfold before us! We will continue to be patient and wait on the Lord's PERFECT timing as we try for a third baby!
Now onto our day!! We decided to take her castle outside and play today! Gracelyn has not played outside since she learned to walk a few months ago and I was so excited for her to explore on her own! We had fun climbing on the ladder and going down the slide. We threw the ball around with Daisy and had so much fun!! I even let her play in the dirt!! (ME!! The clothes nazi let my sweet daughter get her adorable clothes dirty???) Well at least I TRIED.. she actually decided that she didn't like dirt very much anyway... she is VERY much like her mama :)
Enjoy the pictures from todays playtime!! I sure LOVED taking them and found so much joy in watching my little lady discover new and exciting things!!!
Thank you for your thought and prayers! Thank you for your love and support! I am so blessed by all of you!
Love,
Mandi
5 comments:
Amanda...I can so relate with that strong desire to be pregnant. After getting pregnant right away with Gracelyn, I assumed it would be the same the second time around, but it took almost 10 months to get pregnant with Addison. It's very hard to be patient and wait on the Lord's timing. I remember having to surrender it to Him every month that it did not happen. But His timing was perfect for our family and I know it will be perfect for yours too. I will be praying for you to have patience and to be able to focus on the blessings you do have as you wait.
I too can relate with that desire to be pregnant. I think it's something God has designed in women, the heart and desire to be a mom, to carry a child, and to raise and teach that child. I know around that time of the month, how eager it is, how heart-wrenching it becomes. I pray that you do have patience and find joy in the things you have now. This is such special time you have with Gracelyn, enjoy every minute! :)
Nothing is more worth the wait!!
Thank you for your sweet encouraging words guys!! I really debated about posting this, but I needed to write it out so I thank you for listening :)
I guess there are a lot of emotions I have to learn to deal with. I didn't think it would feel like this to lose a baby... I guess I never thought it would happen to me. But I rest in knowing the Lord is my strength and he knows best! I just have to remember that that precious little poppy seed is with the Lord and aside from with me there is no other place I would rather it be! Thank you for your prayers!!!
I definitely had the same feelings that you are having. When Wes and I first got married, babies were the only thing on my brain. I had such a hard time seeing other friends who were pregnant and having babies, when all my little heart desired was to be a mommy. I knew deep down that the timing was not right, and I knew the Lord had a perfect plan for us. We weren't trying at the time when I sooo strongly desired to have a baby, because Wes was not quite as ready as I was.
I also don't know what it is like to loose a baby, I can only imagine how tough that can be. But I know that when you desire a baby that desire is a strong one. I agree that the Lord has instilled that desire within us as women, and that is what makes us such great mommies. You are continually in my prayers, I do believe that the Lord has something great in store for your family.
Thank you for being so honest and sharing your heart.
We will be praying for you guys during this hard time. Sometimes we can't understand why God chooses things for our lives but thankfully we don't have to. We know that he has the perfect plan for our lives and will be right by our side along every step.
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